Where My Head Is

It’s hard to believe I am roughly 4.5 months away from finishing with Peace Corps! I attended a “tea talk” sponsored by our office last Saturday and as I looked around the table at my friends, I realized that in a few short months, everyone will be scattered across the globe. 😦

My anxiety has been riding pretty high lately, sometimes waking me up in the middle of the night. There are so many things to consider at this point:

Kosovo stuff:

  • Finishing my projects with the Peace Corps (teaching, working at the orphanage, working with KosovaLive, and blogging)
  • Finishing with creative projects, such as:
    • Putting the finishing touches on some crochet gifts
    • Finishing some other crochet projects for the etsy store I’m thinking of starting once I am back in the U.S.
    • Working on a children’s story I’d like to publish as an e-book
    • Finishing a longer novel I’m writing
  • Visiting a few spots around Kosovo I’ve yet to see
  • Making sure I have sent postcards to everyone in my address book
  • Slowly whittling down my closet (I’ve been making small, frequent trips to a donation center here)
  • Getting my resume in top shape
  • Thinking of how/when I will end this blog

Michigan stuff:

  • SPENDING TIME WITH MY FAMILY. Also, eating all the food everywhere
  • Finding freelance or part-time work while I hunt for my dream job
  • Doing lots of un-fun stuff: switching my car’s registration from Illinois to Michigan, getting a new U.S. phone number (and possibly a new phone, because mine is dying), figuring out what to do about health insurance, maybe switching my professional licenses from Illinois to Michigan, etc.
  • Doing some fun shopping, as in, I need new clothes
  • Seriously job hunting
    • Figuring out how I am going to job hunt, as my parents don’t have an Internet connection (no kidding)
  • Hopefully doing some U.S. travel to visit friends I haven’t seen in two years! (An autumn trip to New England is highest on my list!)
  • But also, saving as much money as possible

The Bigger Move:

So, I find my dream job and then I have to:

  • Find a place to live
  • Pack and move again
  • Switch all my bills, car stuff, and professional licenses to a new state
  • Start working
  • Make new friends

The Highest-Level Decisions

  • How do I want to live my life moving forward? What didn’t I like about my life before I joined the Peace Corps? What changes do I want to make and how will I make them?

I have some answers at this point, still working on others …

Maybe it seems premature to be thinking about this stuff, but really, 4.5 months is not a long time. I’ve got my trip to Ireland in April, my close-of-service Peace Corps conference in May, school ending in the middle of June, and then roughly a month more and I am DONE! Whoa.

Thank you for the recent postcard, Katie!

I have my postcard list and am still working my way through it. My goal is to send at least one postcard to every person in my address book before I leave Kosovo. If you haven’t received a postcard or if you’ve moved recently, please let me know.

And thanks to all of you for staying in touch! I keep all the cards you’ve sent me in a folder and rotate them around my room as decoration. 🙂

I’ve been reaching out to my professional network lately to inquire about possible freelance projects once I’m back in the States. If you know anyone who might be hiring, please let me know!

8 thoughts on “Where My Head Is”

  1. I had crazy anxiety leading up to COS. It’s scary jumping into something new and uncharted again, even if you’re still looking forward to it too. But there is life after Peace Corps! And it’s hard and weird and wonderful and I didn’t believe that I would cry in a grocery store like everyone said I would but I definitely did. For a while I had a hard time relating to people. I’m definitely not as close to some friends as I was when I left. And being a real grown up again is hard, but it’s pretty great. You’ll be fine!

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    1. Thank you for the reassuring words! I can totally imagine crying in a grocery store. 🙂 I’ve ended two close relationships since I’ve been here, but what I choose to focus on is the number of people who have drawn close to me.


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