YOU GUYS! I AM GOING HOME TO THE UNITED STATES FOR A WEEK! I’ve been waiting for this vacation since the day I left! It’s hard to believe it has been a year since I’ve seen my home country.
I still tear up when I think of saying goodbye to my parents at the airport. BUT I’LL GET TO SEE THEM TOMORROW! I AM SO EXCITED, CAN YOU TELL BY MY CAPS LOCK?!? I will also be excited to push them aside so I can hug our kitties, Sweeney Todd (mine) and Oz (theirs). (Who are we kidding here? Of course I miss the cats the most!)
“Being American” is my defining characteristic here in Kosovo. But once I am back in the United States, “being American” will cease to be remarkable. Identity is a strange thing to consider … we think of it as something so “fixed” (as I wrote about nearly a year ago, in this post), but it really isn’t.
I’ve heard reverse culture shock (returning to one’s own country, after a long time away) is even harder than the initial culture shock of being in a new place. I have a hard time believing that America may seem strange to me, but maybe it will. So much about my country has changed since I’ve been away.
On a lighter note, it’s hard to believe I haven’t driven in a year. While I miss the convenience of having a car, I don’t miss the physical act of driving (and I thought I would). I also miss cooking (and I thought I wouldn’t).
Here are some other things I am looking forward to, in no particular order:
Yoga class! In a studio!
Dunkin Donuts iced coffee
Shopping with my mom at Target, the Dollar Store, Goodwill, and Kohls. (I’m a Midwesterner … what can I say? We like good deals.)
Buying presents to bring back to Kosovo.
Shopping my own closet at my parents’ house. I don’t have tons of clothing left behind, but it’ll be nice to do some swapping.
AIR CONDITIONING! OMG, it’s already a billion degrees here in Kosovo. (It’s possible I am exaggerating. I dislike hot weather.) Family, if you want to know where you can find me, I’ll be lying across the air conditioning vent in my bedroom, weeping softly.
Sleeping at night without the sound of a barking dog(s) to wake me. And let’s add my usual 4:30 a.m. rooster wake up call to this bullet point. Sleeping! In peace! With a cat at my feet! That’s what I like.
I won’t be posting next week. I’ll catch you on Monday, June 26!
A volunteer friend suggested visiting the bazaar in Pristina, so a small group of us went last week. I had no idea there was a bazaar in Pristina!
There was SO MUCH produce for sale, for prices even cheaper than what I can find in my village. (Fifty cents for a carton of strawberries, versus 1.50 Euro in my village.) You can also finds lots of other goods at the bazaar, everything from clothing and yarn, to household items, to cigarettes.
As far as I know, the bazaar is open every week day. You can find it here:
There are millions of teaching materials available on the Internet. I spend a good amount of time pinning worksheets and activities to my TEFL Pinterest board. The problem is, I don’t have an easy way to get things from my computer to the copier at my school. I either end up copying/drawing worksheets by hand, or going to the Peace Corps office in Pristina, printing a copy of something from the Internet, and taking it back to my school to make more copies for my students. (I recently learned I can use my school director’s computer to print directly from the Internet, but I don’t want to make a habit of it.)
A while back, my mom sent me some workbooks from the United States (thanks, mama!). I’ve been cutting them up and taping them to computer paper to create my own worksheets. This eliminates the cumbersome need to find a printer. Also, it’s kind of fun to make my own stuff. 🙂
Here are some examples of worksheets I’ve “created” recently:
Here are some more links to materials and activities I’ve used in the classroom:
I was in Pristina yesterday to attend meetings. At the end of the day, I felt inspired and motivated to get started on secondary projects for the summer (workshops) and fall (volunteering with an orphanage). 🙂
While I was in Pristina, I took advantage of some down time to visit a pet shop. It feels wrong to be enamored of these animals when there are so many strays everywhere, but it is also nice to see healthy, well-tended animals for a change.
This is my favorite photo. I posted it to Instagram and inadvertently cropped out the Chow Chow’s bear-paw feet! And you can’t edit Instagram photos once they’re posted (another reason to dislike Instagram). Anyway, here’s the un-cropped version:
Media consumption this week …
I mentioned last Friday that I needed some light/funny things to watch and read.
My friend Katie suggested trying a Peter Mayle novel for something lighthearted. I downloaded A Good Year from the Chicago Public Library. It is a story about a man who inherits a vineyard in France (yes, please). It was a fun read.
I downloaded The Potter’s Field by Andrea Camilleri. This was an easy-to-read, whodunnit murder mystery set in Sicily.
After seeing this author’s apartment featured on one of my favorite blogs, I decided to download her book Mirror in the Sky. I usually avoid books about teenagers. I had an atypical high school experience, and don’t really relate to “normal” high school stories. However, this was an engaging read. It’s a teenage love story that takes place during a time when a new, Earth-like planet has just been discovered.
I’ve been reading A TON lately. I just haven’t felt like doing much else. A friend suggested writing a post about my summer reading plan. I was like, “I don’t have one.” But I think it’s a great idea! I’d like to compile a master list of books to tackle in my free time this summer. If you have a book suggestion, please message me. I like reading a wide variety of books, both fiction and non-fiction.
Also, I’d like to keep writing three times per week throughout the summer, but I’m already stumped for ideas. If you have a suggestion or questions, please also let me know!
Today marks one year that I have lived in Kosovo! It is hard, in some ways, to believe that a year ago today, I moved to Kosovo. I met a bunch of strangers at Dulles Airport, boarded a plane with them, and have been with them ever since. Only now, I call them my friends.
Lately, I have noticed a big shift in how I feel about being here. While I still feel like a foreigner, Kosovo no longer feels foreign to me. Does that make sense?
I think having lived here through all four seasons has made Kosovo seem like less unfamiliar. In some ways, it feels like I just arrived here. But then, I remind myself I have sweated through a summer, hiked in the colors of fall, shivered through a snowy winter, and marveled at a long, luxurious spring.
I also feel less like some weird American living among strangers. Living with a host family, day-in and day-out, is less exhausting than it used to be. Boundaries are better set, roles are more clearly defined, and I have grown more used to being a part of life here.
In December, I wrote a post about how I have mentally divided my time here into quarters. By my own counting method, I have now completed two quarters.
My second quarter offered two, distinct parts. The first four months, I was miserable. The last two months were happy, and filled with travel, and friends.
I am thankful to have come out of the blues I dealt with this winter. I suspected my first winter would be tough, and it was. But then the weather changed, and I got to go to Rome an old friend, and my feelings shifted.
As much as I love the friends I have made during the Peace Corps, those relationships are new. It was nice to spend time with someone who has known me for nearly a decade. Thanks for your support, Nicole.
I figure now would be a good time to check in with the Peace Corps “chart of emotions.” (I don’t know what it’s actually called.)
So right now (months 11-14), I can expect to feel:
Impatience with self, program, system (Hmm, I think I actually felt more of this a few months ago.)
Place blame on the program (Again, I think I felt this a few months ago.)
Constant complaining (A few months ago … )
Lethargy (Yes. I definitely have less interest in everything … teaching, blog writing, crochet.)
Haughtiness with new trainees (HAHAHA. I haven’t met them yet, but I can see myself feeling this way. These new people, they don’t know what they’re in for!)
At times, the idea of living in Kosovo for another year seems daunting … when do I get to go back to a Western life? But when I think of it as 1/2 of my service being gone, I realize there is still so much more I want to do.
Here are some of my personal and professional goals for my coming service year:
Finish the grant for my school and (hopefully) be awarded funds
Host workshops this summer (narrative writing and essay writing are the plans for right now)
Present to Peace Corps volunteers in Albania about starting a poetry competition there
Help my friend organize the national poetry competition in Kosovo this fall
Start volunteering at an orphanage in Pristina this fall — I found out last week that my application was approved! I am meeting with one of the orphanage directors this week. I’m hoping this new opportunity fills the social work hole in my life.
Possibly do another secondary project for the fall (most likely, teach another English Club at my school)
Continue teaching. This is kind of obvious, since teaching is my primary role here, but I suppose I should add it to the list.
Get my stuff together and help my friends with their “Faces of Kosovo” project
TRAVEL THIS SUMMER! There are so many places I want to go in Europe. It’s hard to narrow them down. But if I had to list everywhere I want to go, they would be: Tirana/southern Albania, Greece, Bratislava, Montenegro, Serbia, Romania, Bulgaria, Prague, Vienna, Croatia, Bruge, England/Paris (again), Florence … SO MANY PLACES!
Travel around Kosovo. There are still places in Kosovo I want to see, including Mitrovice (major city), Brezovice (skiing), Dragash/Opoje (conservative mountain villages), Skenderaj (Adem Jashari memorial), Rahovec (wine), Batilava Lake (sounds pretty), the Bear Sanctuary (uh, bears) …
Get my face painted like a Kosovar bride … This is an experience I really wanted to have while living in Kosovo. I’ve checked into it, and the price would be 150 Euro. That’s a lot of money for me right now … almost all of my spending money for a month. I need to think about it some more …
Continue writing this blog regularly, and enter the Blog It Home contest this fall, assuming Peace Corps still hosts it
Learn to speak better Shqip (This is not going to happen. It’s just not. I know I’m going to leave service wishing I could speak fluent Albanian, but I won’t.)
Continue to build/strengthen my friendships here. I have made an effort to have a breadth of friendships here, to try to be friendly with my entire cohort. However, I feel like I don’t have a depth of friendship yet. It would be nice to have a “best friend” in the Peace Corps.
Think about writing a second grant for my school
Continue to consider options when I finish Peace Corps. I’ll likely return to social work, but where/in what capacity remains to be seen …
On Tuesday evening, I attended a school dinner with teachers from my school, plus the surrounding villages. In typical Kosovo style, I found out about this event just a few hours beforehand. I was told it was free. When I asked who was paying for it, the answer I received was, “The president.” And I was like, “The president of what? Of Kosovo?”
Indeed, the president of Kosovo came and gave a speech! I would have taken his photo, but I didn’t expect him to leave so quickly. 😦
I haven’t ever posted a photo of my current host parents, as I try to respect their privacy. But since we all look so fancy, why not? (They both work at my school and attended the dinner, too.)
Media Consumption this week …
I caught up on Handmaid’s Tale
I watched the documentary There’s Something Wrong With Aunt Diane. The filmmakers interviewed the family of Diane Schuler, who, in 2009, drove the wrong way on a New York freeway and caused an accident that killed 8 people.
At the prodding of my friend, I watched the documentary Tickled. The filmmakers intended to make a documentary about tickling contests (yes, that exists), and found themselves being threatened with legal action. The resulting story is deeply bizarre.
I binge-watched The Keepers on Netflix. The documentary follows the unsolved 1969 murder case of a nun in Baltimore. Along the way, sexual abuse in the Catholic church and a massive cover-up are discovered.
I finished reading Far From the Tree. It centers on the ways children can turn out to be very different from their parents, due to reasons like disability, mental illness, genius, or life choices (like crime). This was a riveting book and yet, parts were very hard to read.
Here are some quotes from Far From the Tree that I found to be particularly thought-provoking (and there were many):
“Little is more gratifying than successful and devoted children, and few situations are worse than filial failure or rejection.”
“It is often ourselves we would like to see live forever, and not someone with a personality of his own.”
” ‘In America, every kid has to be well rounded. They have ten different activities, and they never excel at any of them. Americans want everyone to have the same life; it’s a cult of the average.’ ”
The things I’ve been watching/reading lately have all been heavy. I could use a laugh! If you can recommend something funny, please do so. 🙂
Have a good weekend, and I’ll talk to you on Monday.